Expecting during Advent
Four times I’ve been pregnant during Advent. The first time. The second time. The third time. Now the fourth time.
Four times I’ve teared up at all the hymns about waiting for a child. Four times I’ve connected with the stories of annunciation and visitation in a tender and touching way. I know many mothers have shared the wonder of this experience, to be expecting when the whole world seems to be expectant, too.
But this time around? I’m learning about the darker side. The vulnerability and uncertainty and mystery of what that first Advent must have meant.