I have never liked hospitals.  Hospitals
can so often seem to be places where we attempt to sequester the pain
and confusion and despair that are a part of so many lives—to keep them
out of sight and out of mind. When we go to the hospital, we look in a
mirror and we see ourselves in 5, 10, 20, 50 years—it doesn’t really
matter how long. The question isn’t if but when we will take our place
amongst all of these broken down worn out decaying bodies.

How do we live and move inside these
places? How do we pretend to have normal conversations about weather and
sports and church and children’s activities alongside a wild-eyed woman
stumbling around with her dressing gown wide open, or a sad-faced old
man who keeps wandering around blankly, pushing his walker into chairs?
How do we visit when the woman next to us is sobbing confusedly as she
coughs down her sixth pill of the morning? How can we speak of things
like eternity and suffering and salvation over the din of mindless
television programs blaring to occupy these fading treasures of glorious
humanity, these flickering lights? How do we pray and talk and laugh
and speak of life in these halls of death? What good could possibly come
of our feeble attempts to wrest order out of all this chaos?

I get back into my car after my hospital
visit and the man on the radio is interviewing a physicist from Oxford.
They’re talking about quantum physics, relativity, and the “undeniable”
existence of multiple universes parallel to our own. In another
universe, right now, I am having completely different experiences than
the “me” that I think is exclusively real is currently having. Maybe I’m
riding a scooter or a horse. Maybe I’m skydiving or planting a garden.
Maybe I’ve taken up smoking.

The conversation is lively and
enthusiastic, full of impressive sounding facts and statistics and
studies and recent developments. “But it all just seems so
unbelievable,” says the program host to the Oxford physicist. The
esteemed scientist replies, “well, the question is do you want to
understand the world as it really is or not? This is the way progress is

Progress. Maybe.

Maybe in another universe the dear person
I visited this morning is not staring blankly at a wall, wondering if
the doctors will be able to fix all the problems, and wring a few more
years out of what has already been a full life. Maybe in a parallel
universe there are no more tests to wait for, no more antiseptic smells
and sterile utensils, no gross-looking half-eaten jello on the plate, no
harried “recreation therapists” with no time to talk, no bedpans and
vomiting, no wilting flowers and limp balloons, no visits that are
always too short.

There may be other universes out there
where better things are happening to other versions of ourselves. There
may be a heaven, for that matter. Both can seem equally remote and
irrelevant from “the world as it really is.” After a trip to the
hospital, I am less interested in the question of how many universes it
takes to explain the one I see than I am in whether the one I see has
love and hope in its future.

I read these words from Romans 8 in the hospital today:

For I am convinced that neither death,
nor life, nor angels, nor things present, nor things to come, nor
powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will
be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our

The love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Enough for multiple universes. Enough for the hospital room.

Originally posted at Rumblings.

Ryan Dueck

Ryan Dueck is the pastor of Lethbridge Mennonite Church in Alberta, Canada. He blogs at Rumblings, part of the CCblogs network.

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