On not losing you after all

August 13, 2021

There are dreams where you feel your lungs filling.
What was I doing? you say when the blue water hits your brain

What was I doing all my life?

Have the cars come loose on the ski lift over the sharp trees a mile over the
       sharp trees?

Goodbye you say to the good world in which you lived without thinking.

I in my sleep kept murmuring broken benedictions to the white walls whispering
      I shall not want

but
like a lamb with one ebony hoof in the teeth of a gray wolf.

You open your eyes on the carpet, a heap of sheets over your head.