And here is a full church

July 17, 2017

The sanctuary is quiet now.
Maple leaves, scattered yellow cake crumbs,
the only evidence of the passing
of Tuesday morning and here is a full church.

You have to leave when the funeral ends.
Brush the sorrow from your shoes
till it stains the sanctuary, this chewed gum
feeling, this hapless God wearing polka dots
and plaid feeling, the silence

in the sanctuary while you packed the crying baby
into the van, the baby who didn’t start crying until
lunch in the church basement. Crying, wouldn’t stop,
for maybe something baby and simple, maybe for

he just took notice of the silence in the room.
How all the fried chicken sounded louder
than the hands. The cry. The way he struggled
against the seatbelt when you tried to buckle it.