Small things and miracles
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I am not a particularly confident pastor and preacher. I
don't think I am neurotic about it, but I do harbor my own sense of doubt. It's
not that the doubt freezes me in place and keeps me from functioning. It's more
the kind of doubt that sits off in the corner somewhere, creeping up now and
then to poke at me, asking questions like, Does anything you do really make a
Yeah, I know. It's not about me. I get that. I also get that
I am not now, nor will I ever be, Jesus. But I sometimes wish I had some mighty
superpower, some dramatic gift, with which I could help our congregation and
our community be better than they are. To do something for a dying member, something
more than just saying a prayer. To say something to a member in pain, something
more than just, "I am here for you."
In my Century lectionary column for this week,
I chose the Acts and Luke readings because they get at me at one of my weaker
points. I believe that we really can talk ourselves into faith--that the best
response to doubts is not to squelch them but to name them. But I don't think
we should stop there. I try to move beyond the doubt to claim what seems to be
the promise of these texts: that even small things can be used by God to bring
about a miracle.
I guess I used this writing opportunity to preach to myself.
Frankly, it's not the first time this has happened, and it probably won't be
the last. But, Lord willing, someday it won't be necessary anymore.