In early March the doves mourn as each new dawn I sit, looking over the barren field where for ten days nothing stirs until six weeks from the day she died, an owl flies from dark woods to perch on a bare branch above the Buddha where, motionless, his round unblinking eyes stare into mine though who knows what he sees, or what, if anything, it means, but life is like that, isn’t it, the way it sometimes when least expected breaks wide open, and what appeared as lost is found.
On the back of the MBTA bus An ad for Devil Dogs complete With photos of “vanilla-flavored Crème sandwiched between two Fun-shaped Devil’s Food cakes” Exclaims “Yes please!” urging us To “listen to our cravings” which is To say consume whatever we imagine Might fill the hungry ghost of fear That dwells in each of us living In this land of plenty where more is Never quite enough: but what if Craving became longing for something Of another order, and what if we instead Said “Yes” to prisoners, lepers, refugees, And what if we might someday learn To let this moment be enough, This naked twig, this autumn sky, This bird in flight, this drifting leaf.
Everything in the world begins with a yes. Clarice Lispecter
For Bishop Tom
In the beginning there is only Yes, infinitesimal, infinite, invisible seed sprouting in the swirling dark, the slow integration, expanding, extending, the sudden explosion into light—baby, blossom, universe, all beginnings are the same—and Yes to a world begun before words where nothing separates this from that, and Yes to the senses alive before language, bird song, leaf shadow, skin touching skin, and Yes to Tom whose injured brain erases speaking, reading, names, but through hands cupped upon bent heads, his unimpeded heart pours forth with nothing to restrict the flow of Yes in beginning and Yes in the end.
This is an updated version of the poem that appears in the print edition.
Crossing the lake in thick fog with nothing to be seen except the buoy to starboard marking the rock we didn’t want to hit that Tom said we’d already passed but Whit said No, we’re way beyond it which is when the boat rose up bow riding high to leave us stranded the boat an ark the rock a mountain the fog a cloud that covered us waiting for who knew what—a voice, a face, a sudden shining— but there was nothing more than thinking how many times when losing sight we circle back to where we started only to begin again.