If I really loved Jesus I would surely not be here in the sunshine. I'd be trying to love the poets now reading in a room without me. If I really, really loved I would not even think what I think,
and it would go easier. Because my neighbors' dogs bark at dawn for sheer joy. Because like them I have known joy. I have matched and folded the family socks, survived history
so far, seen my small desires satisfied. Did I come all this way to sit on a bench? Did the ragged goose feather once have a home? It's too hot to sit long in the sun. Can we, can we, can we, the girl
asks her mother, and her brother hitches his pants and runs fast as he can down the wrong path. His sister calls and he runs back, sniffs a yellow tulip. Oh do what you want says her mother
and the new weeds, and the cardinal says I will do what I can.
I could sit down on this rock, partway up the hill. No time for the overlook, much less Split Rock. A good day for caterpillars and new greenery, mushrooms and
puddles just starting to shrink. All this rain, yet one day we will pray for more. Some say the Rapture is hours away, but there's no sign yet. It would be some kind of change.
I'm expecting something besides bodies sailing up into the void, something more like the way new shoots of mayapple and poison ivy appear out of the muck,
or spring warblers call invisibly from 10:00 high. Sometimes a leafy branch will wave and beckon through a window in the trees, then go still. Years ago
I walked up this hill at dawn, sweating with the climb as I did today, and in the meadow at the top I walked up on a flock of wild turkeys, as if they'd been waiting for me.