Poetry

Poetry

The pastor’s wife reports to traffic school

Ash Wednesday

We watch cars crash,
bodies crush,
drunks stagger,
adolescents weep,
             until

we believe:
no matter how innocent
we think we are,
how good our intentions,
there’s no re-crossing
those double
yellow lines.
              No short cuts.
Ever.
          Rock: clay: dust.

Uncle Mose’s dream

Mose Wright was Emmett Till’s great uncle.

What if that brave Emmett
had somehow managed to escape,
my boy who had done all that talking,
a word or maybe two before those
thirsty fists demanding
to be quenched in his blood
slammed my door down looking for him.

Say he heard their pickup truck.
Say he jumped out the window
of my clapboard house and ran through row
after row of burly-cheeked cotton
until even the lily-white moon
could not follow him.

Say he made it to that line
of loblolly pines and hid
in the colored cemetery; no whites allowed
their children or their womenfolk to go there
where the haints of lynched men lurk,
hate messages singed into their chests.

Say he made for the river
seeking safety in the bulrushes,
the final resting place of so many slaves
who ran for freedom, hoping his battered
breath might last long enough under
the cesspooling water, stringy-fingered
weeds and copperheads
grabbing for his ankles.

Say the Tallahatchie had not turned
vengeful, angry that some black boy
would pollute the waters where white men
feed their families and their lusts.

Say, too, from the river he searched
for a ditch to lie in, coffining him
from the burlap-hooded vigilantes
swooping over the countryside.

Say a thunderstorm struck that night,
as they screamed to God
to let them catch the boy before
the lightning or the buzzards did.
Say, too, they scattered black
and white posters all over
Mississippi vowing to bury him.

Then say, just say, how he almost
found the train tracks which might have
led him out of the Delta,
out of Egypt, I called my son.

Contemplation with red bridge and windy sunshine

The space between two people never quite closes. That’s
all right. It’s the rub of surfaces we need anyway, the slow

brush of hand on arm, the quick hug as we discover
an old friend has gone gray, that he’s reading on a hard

chair in the back room, leaving most of the house to strangers.
It’s all right to leave him there, maybe, to walk across

the red bridge and into the woods, travel the worn paths
in windy sunshine. Turning left each time will bring

you back. It’s all right, maybe, to explain that you won’t
be back till late, that you hope for coffee in the morning,

for a small table upstairs to spread out your books and papers,
most of which you won’t open before you pack up to leave.

The space between two people can open like a net, collapse,
dangle loose and empty, ready to catch and hold, to bind.

The year begins & Christ hides hushed

in the brambles and in the brush,
in the long shadows on the long street,
in the creases of the faces that I greet.
Dryad of my back yard,
Apollo of my morning,
bell tones hefted heavenward,
musk of hardwood burning,
my wild hand that guides the pen,
my tame heart that wilds when
all cries Christ! and Christ! again.
O beauty, O fast friend,
your touch upon my parchment skin,
youngs it new. The year begins.

The choice

The organ swings into the invitation hymn,
slinging us around the known world
toward the apogee of surrender,
Oh Muse of Scripture, Muse of Choice,
Muse of the Sawdust Trail.
I look at my hand resting on this oak pew,
shaped like Asia, a million cells teeming,
blood pumping, going on with its normal
irreligious, hungry life.
Things are being decided.
We are singing Just As I Am, the fourth verse,
over. My right hand listens
to the soprano next to me,
balancing on her catwalk of steep chords.
It longs to fly up to that soaring obbligato.
Just raise your hand, the Evangelist calls,
if you want God to use you on the mission field.
What he means: when God wants to find you,
He will know where to look.
My right hand twitches, tugging skyward
on its kite string. What I have been taught:
marks on paper, numbers, letters,
postulates, break down.
The whole repertoire of my life
has been practice for this moment.
I try to make myself restful and empty,
nothing but an interval
before the generous right hand,
and the sinister left, decide.