Not that you couldnâ€™t reach Him if you tried (maybe you couldnâ€™t) but that you no longer try. Your last real prayer? In a plane, beseeching Him, donâ€™t let me die. How actual He seems at 30 thousand feet, how passionately you love Him in your hope for solid ground. Not unlike that day you first felt Him ripping through your heart, you driving fast, believing youâ€™d foiled gravity, dendrites of rain flowing up your windshield, the sting of joy like spearmint in your mouth, and now how improbable He seems. That Whoever made the stars would even notice. You! A word in His mouth? And yet you miss Him. If it could be true! You think of trying to reach Him, tell Him youâ€™ve reconsidered.