Each time I visit, my father gives me The things that are sold from weekend drivewaysâ€” A painting, old golf clubs, assorted books. Before itâ€™s too late, he says, repeating That caution bimonthly for nineteen years Because the Bible says threescore and ten.
But lately, theyâ€™ve been practical, these gifts, Things requiring muscle, as if some part Of him might enter me through communion, Transubstantiation happening when I take these things in my hands, receiving His body and blood in the church of work, Believing I will take it through my hands, That forgiveness will follow when I fill His role as oldest, feeling him return In the useful things lifted one morning, The rake and clippers, the shovel and hoe.
Beside the porch, this afternoon, his gifts Are clustered like possibilities raised By numbersâ€”a sickle, a pick, a scythe. â€śOne last thing,â€ť he says, waving me inside Where I imagine vacuum cleaner, broom, A yearâ€™s-stiff mop, following his shuffle Until, in his bedroom, he says, â€śNot these. Just look,â€ť showing me nail file and tweezers, Cuticle scissors, the small implements Of grooming left behind by my mother, What he wonâ€™t part with, flexing those scissors With finger and thumb, ready to receive.